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Friday, May 27, 2016

You.


Assalamualaikum and Hello..



I still don't have the gut to open my photo gallery. Too many memories inside; and for this time being, it makes me cry.

Thank you for being so strong, stronger than what I thought you could be, stronger than what you thought you could be, so strong that you fought till your very last breath. 

And I am currently being attack by millions of flashbacks - of you, of us, of your words, of your spirit, of our hopes, our plans, and everything that remains. 

Please wait for me, husband. 
I promise I'll do good, I'll be good, and I will be a good mother to our son. 

Please wait for me, one day we will meet again; and this time it will be forever. 

I really love you. Dunia, akhirat. 

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Bicara


Tuhan,

Seandainya benar Kau ingin menjemput dia kembali, izinkan aku menyusul kemudian juga. 


Aku merayu.


Tuesday, May 17, 2016

May


Assalamualaikum and Hello :)


I spend the day at home today. Work from home - in front of the TV, wearing my unglamorous baju tidur, and messy hair bun. 


I feel incomplete. 

I miss the danna so badly. I miss to see him walking across the room, being lazy on the sofa, his clumsiness in the kitchen, and his laughter. 

He, inspire me a lot. 

He always push me to be a better person. He strategised everything so that I could go higher and further. He motivates me. He's everything to me. 


I miss you everyday. 
Not a second goes by without me calling your name.

I just, miss you. :)



Monday, May 2, 2016

Random


Assalamualaikum and Hello :)


Yup, still struggling with back pain. But it is ok.


Random photo from my gallery.


Pregnancy update: 
Baby kicks are getting harder. 
I laughed when I saw someone was like twirling around inside; how magical.
I cant wait to welcome the baby into this world but at the same time I am sooo going to miss these moments that I am currently facing right now.



Personal update:
Put aside all those body aches and discomforts; I can say that I am feeling more content and relaxed nowadays. 
Now I have learned about kifarah, and I am blessed to know that He never forgets me. 
And I can see some people who used to say bad things about me etc; are now xxxxxxxxxxx. :) no need to say, God knows.
Despite the hard times that I have went through, I am glad that I was with the danna and proves him that I'll be with him; rain or sunshine. 


Me love ya, my man!


Sunday, May 1, 2016

May 1


Assalamualaikum and Hello :)




Alhamdulillah for everything. 


Recently I am having back pain, and it kinda restrict my daily routines. Thus, my gynae gave me a letter telling that I am not fit for office works and suggest me to work from home. Yeay. 


So instead of sitting up straight and do my job, now I can do it by laying down on my bed, or while chilling on my sofa, and it is obviously a bless :) 


Right now mama is here in the house, and suddenly this little bun inside here is being so manja; nak muntah muntah la, nak cramp la, nak false contraction la, nak being tired all day long la, and mama is being so helpful; just like every other moms would do to their kids. 


About the cramping, it was so intense; starts from my back and radiates to my lower abdomen, making me unable to stand up straight or walk. Yup, no one said it is going to be easy, so I guess I just have to stay strong :)


For baby and daddy.


I miss the danna so badly. 
And I need him more than anything in this world. 
Especially at times like this. 


I miss you, sweetheart. 



Goodnight. 

xx

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